on love

radiant lack of darkness
pins and needles
beauty and pressure
and beauty
of connection
of empathy
of blissful serenity
the reality
born in the heart
grows in every interaction
expands beyond intention
chronic infection
of embodiment
surpasses its own spark of creation
protected in nurture
in reverence
in awe
in reception
created in positivity
in joy
and truth
and enlightenment
formative undulation of light
conquers balance
harbors peace
enables unity.

centered.

cleansing wisdom
inner strings pulled
pulled from chore electromagnetism
everything center
strength of indestructible balance
life force beyond transgression
radiates through power
and connection
all is one is all
peace
of essence
the humanity of me
one breath
one united movement
capability
harnessed in intuition
released in electricity.
touch
soft smooth embrace
hear
inner truth, reality of now
fragrance of transformation
sweet subtleties
vision of the divination of mundane
what used to be
now radiates
in reception
limitless elasticity
into an altered degree
expands beyond
any ability to limit in clarity
rise
above all
rise beyond the individual
anchored in physicality
released in mental awakening
from within
and from beyond
beyond rationality
beyond all that used to be
fire.
inner peace.
fire.
fear manifests in motivation
utilization
effect in the affect
amidst all
illumination.
elevation
holds light
lightly grounded in capability
in inspired resonance
wisdom from universal connection
breeds appreciation
reality, merely a formality.
Rebirth. Chosen.

DNA

body mind
between space time
within the inner most expanse of me
energy
pure breath of energy
filter through the me
spiral spiral
rise
awareness manifest in breathing patterns
slow, slower, slowly
ebb
disconnect into the reconnection
ebb
enter the exterior
through gated misconceptions
ebb
flow, slow, flow
breathe
deeper, out and beyond
flow
slow
release
relax
penetrate with concentration
experience
ebb and flow and experience
quiet stillness
still concentration
and spiritual manifestation
of self
oneself, yourself
myself
reconnected, resurrected
beyond mortality
into vitality
this vital sublimation
still the soul
into the ebb and flow
the breath of release
increased
paced progression
beyond intent
reinvention of indoctrination
in this moment
feel the intensity of sensation.

the whole world stops
every time
those words
cross your lips

every cell
within my being
burns with passion
as the words pierce my flesh

every wall
every reservation
dissipates
beneath the weight of this moment

everyting,
this means everything.

flight patterns

Today
unlike any other
not as good as tomorrow
yet better than before.
Looking forward
towards the future
for the first time
in a long time
wanting more.
Happiness
is tangible
is touchable
is inside.
Part of me
of what I used to be
has been set free.
Letting go
holding on
letting go
letting
myself feel.
Balance
on the tip of my tongue
on the edge of your world.
Walk the line
between yes and no
maybe.
Or maybe could be
will be
carefully
explored.
I say yes
if you say yes
and we say yes
then let's.
Dive
into the unknown
the unforeseen
the "this can't be"
happening
moment by moment
happening.
Every day
a little stronger
and always deeper
I stop falling
and begin to soar.

balance

relax
feel the tightness fade.
breath
focus on the air that feeds your mind.
exhale with certainty
new moments beginning.
search for stability
in the turning of tides
and recognize your mortality
as an object of beauty.
balance,
with dignity
with pride,
let trauma subside
into memories of love.
with trembling hands
conquer the world.

maturity

i used to speak before thinking
letting each word manifest itself in sound
as it entered my head.
i spoke fast
chaotically
in fits of rage
and passion.
like bullets
my words struck unprotected victims
of whatever was happening to me.

i speak now
rarely
when it cannot be avoided
with exercised answers
of intricate precision.
the truth locked inside
a forrest of lies.

release

fury of time
enraging savage language of love
heroes of virtue slain
in the conflict of death
decisions
mind's delirium
impending risks whisper temptation
with savory intrigue
lost in wonder
found in awe
awakening search
on the shores of Venus
through this chronic affection
inspiration develops
letting go of control
to find the way...

relax

sleep
in the chaos of your world
close your eyes
heavy with confusion
let it be
and escape
into your creation
take of yourself
what the world tried to keep
and just be.
smile
with satisfaction
sincerity
build the life you want
the one you've always deserved
because
you deserve so much more
than what you are living in.

sedated

dance with me
to the beating of our hearts
under this open expanse
of sapphire surrender.
sing to me
songs of passion's voyage
through the dew
on the leaves of the oak
upon whose branches i swing through my fears.
laugh with me
in our simplicity
sedated in innocent grins.
breath with me
the air of our future
feeling inner voids disappear
into the sweet serenity of life
when dreams
and truth
become one.

everything changes
when we open our minds
to the fact
that never exists only in expectations
imposed by another

full moon

we're in this
together
connected
beyond words, thoughts and intentions.
reverberate
within my soul
shake my heart
into a waking state
Alive.
I am
you are
this is.
Alive
for the first time
in so long
it actually hurts to feel
a pain so real
so beautiful
feel it
i feel it
this feeling
like a better part of me
or all of me
finally coherent
finally.
bigger than me
than what i profess to be
the us
the everything in between
a reflection of the depths of my soul
seen through the beauty of yours
elevated
above all else
above the scars of yesterday
exposed, delicate skin
flesh before flesh
beneath soft caresses
and butterfly kisses
cultivate today
tonight's truths bring tomorrow's harvest.

falling

your voice
resonates in my soul
ricochets between the walls of my heart
and materializes
upon my lips.
smiling
ear to ear
from within
everywhere.
every touch
every contact
ignites
every cell.
restoration radiates around me
begins within.
from my tongue
comes languages forgotten
words, once betrayed, and left for decay
now approach
the edge
of spoken and felt
of offered and taken...
fear diminishes
beneath your gaze
as hope
ceases its hiding.

a proclamation

I am
a reflection
of your projection
of every rejection.
A mere collection
of years of hesitation
love and separation
a manifestation
of sublimation
and violent frustration.
A shell of intent
and time never spent.
All the things you resent
all those promises lent
that never became
more than something to blame,
the absence of fame.
When everyday is the same,
I am your shame.
And yet
I am not you.
I will grow where you never grew
do things you'll never do.
You're resentment inspires
and ignites internal fires,
the pursuit of desires
beyond what life merely requires.
Released from your hold
and the soul that you've sold.
All the lies I've been told
will no longer mold
who i am to become.
You are only where I came from
never again march to your drum.
I have broken free
free to be fully me
to fully just be
a greatness
beyond anything you'll ever see.

promises promises

Sing,
sweet siren,
your beautiful song.
Lull me
into dreams unspoken.
Request me by name
if you want me
here
I'll be.
I am
Powerless
against every note that passes between your lips.
Every word
pulls me deeper.
Walls become ruins
where hope becomes truth.
Each and every breath
crisp with intention
fuels my desire.
Sing to me,
those moonlight promises
those intoxicated truths,
whispered before dawn's arrival
slow with sleep
and the scars of past trust.
I'll keep my promises
if you let me.

because no one else will do it for you.

for all the words,
the hours and hours,
the silence still holds
the ultimate serenity.

the looks
the wordless gestures
the accidental contact
the purposeful engagement
the soundless stares
seize my very existence
paralysis
ignites from within
forms a smile
deeper than words
stronger than hope
mind
to body
to soul
to mind

believe it
because its happening
believe it
because it stands before you


just reach out
just reach out and connect
it exists
you exist
this exists
somewhere.
bring it here.
take it
have it
hold it
enjoy every last minute.

blindness

caught.
eyes caught
I'm caught.
Body contraction
Filter. Filter. Filter,
Feel.
Grip, bite down
hold tight
hold steady
don't let go
don't let go
don't...
Let go,
let the blood
drain veins
into pools of dreams
and hopes and desires
and,
all these pieces of me.
Crimson.

Don't speak
words ruin
Don't speak
words ruin
Don't exhale
everything will be...
Ruined.
Eclipse my fate
straight down my center
Don't look
directly at it,
don't stare.
Blink
just blink
break the hold
break the light
don't let it
burn it's mark
it's permanent mark
it's beautiful, beautiful scar.
Look away.
It's too late...
Already want it
feel it
want it
need it
want it
hate it...

Want it..
Desire is not enough.

on learning.

vagabond
this bohemian curse of restlessness
forever forward
forever through
search and find and desire
take what I can
what I will
what I need
and move on
move forward
move backward
sewing seeds
but never roots
always wanting more and more and
more
always more
it’s never enough
but it’s just enough
to keep the journey
alive
constant desire
for change of pace
for different faces
tire easily, lay down for rest
settle for the daybreak
build a shelter
something stable
but its never home
always someone else’s sky
holding someone else’s stars
some nights they seem so close
so tangible
reach out
and grab air
great in theory
never in practice
muscles tighten
strengthen
define
redefine
will never be used
for better
for more
search and search
for something familiar
for something that fits
judgemental stares
as wrinkles deepen
mistaken for undriven
home is never here
it’s always up ahead
around the corner
somewhere beyond
the desire to hold it all
to see it all
to feel every last feeling
overcomes
and everythin always amounts
to nothing
just another move
in no direction
my home
does not exist
does not exist
does not exist.

every last piece

every last piece of me
felt that moment
heard those words
every last piece of me
collapsed beneath the force
shifted form
ebbed
and flowed
every neuron fired
like lightening
and trembled like rain
but
still
i sat still
paralyzed
i sat still.
I sat
still feeling
and unable to break the connection
every last piece of me
desired to pull away
desired to
desire something else
worth desiring
every fucking last piece of me
will always remember
will always remember
will always remember

full moon.

build it up
into everything
into nothing
into one moment
smile like you mean it
like you feel it
like you want it
too
let go of your mind
and fall into mine
pull the curtains closed
turn off the lights
shut the doors
hide from everything
and everyone
and feel it
the burn
the fire
the burn
the desire
the fear
all of it
every last drop
bleed it dry.