fear

i remember
searching for this
not finding
empty hands
looking so hard
to find this
before it found me
only to find
that it was right in front
staring, eye to eye
close enough to touch.
of course i did
of course i looked right past it
overlooked it
looked away
i knew there was something
if only one thing
and here it is.
shake my hand
my the best man win.

disbelief

i can't
i can't believe it
i try
everyday
i try
to convince myself
it's just too good
so good
amazing
can it really be?
honestly, seriously...
is this really possible?
how?
do you do it
does it work...?
baby..
tell me
really, truly..
are you for real?
is this for real?
mine?
it's perfect
all of it.
more.
please, more.
always, more..
please?