the weight of this silence
traps my breath within my chest
even tears cannot fall against it
there is a moment
that marks a point
when return is no longer an option
did it pass?
in the midst of everyday bullshit
and misguided thought?
did it slip
and fill the gap in between?
its power like stone
unbreakable...
soon,
we'll know soon
maybe it's too soon
to know for sure
or maybe certainty
comes unwillingly
yet unceasingly
increasingly....
i'll fight
till fists bleed
blood may be futile
but it's thicker than tears

sometimes
the wind shifts
and words slip
and even the brightest of days
are lost to haze
and you sit
and wonder
and sit
wondering
how quickly things held
can be dropped
when the heart stops
the mind still turns
slowly turns
head over heals over head
over
the smallest of mistakes
have the highest of stakes
in one quick flash
you see the past
in the future
forgetting to question tomorrow
lets history repeat
but you're in so deep...

fear

i remember
searching for this
not finding
empty hands
looking so hard
to find this
before it found me
only to find
that it was right in front
staring, eye to eye
close enough to touch.
of course i did
of course i looked right past it
overlooked it
looked away
i knew there was something
if only one thing
and here it is.
shake my hand
my the best man win.

disbelief

i can't
i can't believe it
i try
everyday
i try
to convince myself
it's just too good
so good
amazing
can it really be?
honestly, seriously...
is this really possible?
how?
do you do it
does it work...?
baby..
tell me
really, truly..
are you for real?
is this for real?
mine?
it's perfect
all of it.
more.
please, more.
always, more..
please?