memories...

Here I am
Here- this desolate icy coldness.
Crevice in time, crack through my heart.
STUCK. Afraid to move forward
to feel this again- suffocated by fear.
Only tears break through
Breaking. Broken.
Shattered insignificance.
Hunted by truth,
destroyed by reality,
my own delusion,
my trust, my desire,
my perseverance,
my hope.
Betrayal- piercing my perception
my misconception
of what I deserved.
Afraid to move forward.
Vulnerability- unwillingly
scarred sensitivity.
Changing me
who I never wanted to be
losing control
I never had.

remember who asked

Always.
I will give you everything
As a gift, as an offering
Expose the throat
Head held high
Gaze forward- focused
Stark nudity
such vulnerability
this offering of all of me
Stands still
Still here
Standing before you
The Fear
Lies in the trust
Lies in the truth
and lies.
I feel this
Everywhere- in every muscle
In every movement
Like an extension
of everything good in me
Every moment of pride.
An answer
to every tear shed
to every “why” shouted
into emptiness
Stands here
before me
with the deepest brown eyes
and the most beautiful smile…

empowered.

There is no top,
no plateau,
no summit,
there is only up.
Forward. Up.
Limitation
is another man’s word,
we will never know.
Together-
we are everything
all things.
This.
This Love. This Power.
Did not exist
until we created it.
Perfect. Everything is
Perfect.
Perfectly where it’s meant to be.
Here.
Within. Between.
No one who came before
knew,
and none who follow
will see.
Ours. This is ours.
This is us.

i have no control
over anything
but
the me that will be here
when you are gone.

temptation

flesh
swollen, raised...
bruised, aching...
burning
longing
burning...
just a taste
just a tease
just a glimpse to hold on to
to long for
to replay countlessly
over and over
until we meet again...
soon
you said
hold on.
images flash-
body burns
everything craves
everything desires
that touch.
nothing left uncovered.
waiting... hoping.. wanting...
this moment
now
right now
promises and desires
and you
here
now.
you should be here
right now.

restlessness

disconnect
pull back, stagger.
withdraw, release, withdraw.
inside of you
and enveloping me.
was it spoken words?
or purely actions?
is it anything
if i don't give it breath?
tell me,
everything,
all the things
i never want to hear.
your voice
like a drug
i'll never know what hit.
my belief
in this
is more powerful than you.

full moon

nothing
means anything
means everything
means tomorrow
is another day.
the beauty
is in the fight
is in the moments
between minutes.
tangled,
torn,
between
dreams and fears.
fight what's inside
to hold on to the outside.
is it a choice
or a gift
or a game
at the hands of another?
every creation
holds its own keys to destruction.
there exists within,
a passion,
that drives
that builds
that burns
and burns.
all that i have
all that i am
will vanquish in this flame.